onvenienced by my presence after losing weight like they did when I was big and if I appear that I need help in public, people are more likely to go out of their way to help me – this is all from both men and women btw. I get hit on a lot more, but the negative side of that attention is I get unwanted sexual attention a lot more, as well. Both from being larger framed (ie more physically imposing) and from being traditionally unattractive you don’t get harassed in public as much as a larger woman, but since losing weight I’ve been followed and stalked, cornered and masturbated on against my will, I’ve had people attempt to manipulate me to get sexual favors – just generally more pushy sexual advances all around. One thing that is constantly stated and is absolutely true, though, is you never stop viewing yourself as fat. Those thoughts, insecurities and feelings are always present with me. When i hear cruel comments online or in person levied against overweight people they feel like they’re directed at me. One weird thing is since losing weight thin people will make disparaging comments against fat people in front of me or to me and there’s this weird expectation that I would be totally on board with ridiculing someone because of their weight just because I’m not fat. It’s both a validating and infuriating experience, validating because I know I’m seen as thin enough for them to make these comments in front of me and there is a certain satisfaction that comes from that as someone who grew up fat and still walks around feeling like a fat person due to the long lasting nature of that mindset, yet infuriating because of how common and accepted that ridicule is and it instantly makes me feel what it felt like when those comments were levied at me. Losing weight as a whole has been one of the best and most enlightening things I’ve ever done, but I feel like I now fit a Official as Long As I Have A Mouth You Will Have A Place To Piss Shirt that I’m not used to and isn’t always preferable to me. There’s something nice about going out and being invisible sometimes.
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First ask your parents if they need any help with anything (chores, dishes, running errands, etc.). Then make sure your room and bathroom are tidy and that none of your belongings are scattered around the house. Now, take a bath if you do that at night, get dressed for bed and brush your teeth and get out the Bible andread the Christmas story. (My favorite one is the first 2 chapters of Luke in the New Testament). This would be awesome to do with your family. Now say a prayer with your family, give each person a hug and go to bed. Now it gets harder! Close your eyes and try to remem ber everything you can about the Christmas story in the Bible and about Christmases in the past. Remember gifts you gave, food you ate, carols you sang, everything you can remember. If you are still awake, say your own silent prayer and ask God to help you relax and fall asleep. Then lay perfectly still on your back. Make sure you are comfortable and that the lights are off in your room.
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